only slightly obsessing over freaks and geeks. 

We laid there in comfortable discomfort and everything was slow and we babbled. I babbled. heavy sweaters, awkwardly shared pillows and a couple blankets. It wasn’t even really cold. it wasn’t cold at all.

We talked about the stars, the astrophysics. The way they light up. The way that we grew up being told “get out, take a look at the stars” and we were kids and they were adults and we listened and we saw. It must’ve been a reflex. They never got to look at them. Maybe we knew that. We looked and looked. And we learned to savour and to run, to see and to feel. And we loved. And I think, some of us, who got locked out of our house more often than others, looked so much that we got lost in the stars. Somewhere between here and a ways away.

when push comes to shove, i won’t make the list.
and gravity’s working pretty well right now.

i can barely remember anything from everything. 

It seems to me as though we’re all just a meh kind of a mood today… Let’s cuddle yeah?

Phases. Our waves are incoherent.
This interference. The monochromacy stops, disorders, erupts. Fill the light with more lines, add some scratches on the discs, eruptions, collisions.

It all turned brighter, it all turned hazier, the sun’s shining too brightly.

I’m so far gone.

These are not grammatical tense errors.

I just really need Green to come back to school. I know I annoy the hell out of her and piss her off hellions and pretend that I run a communist government in which all of my wrath is subjected to only her but… There’s something incredibly calming and maternal about her relationship with me. Probably with others too. Her tough love. I need it. It’s a nearly healthy addiction.

sometimes, the time stops and soulful, lonely, needing and desperate overtones overlap over one another. they hum, they flow, to and fro, in and out of one another. and more than through just themselves but us too. body and soul, we’re taken. in an almost religious way. 

we speak in the plural. we are alone. we are haunted by all that’s around us. we find everything beautiful. we fade. we erupt. 

we are here.